Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Seeking Answers

What an emotional ride I have taken the past few days. I got a call last week from a principal at an elementary school here in Price. They needed some first grade teachers and wondered if I would be interested. I had my application submitted for another part time job that I didn't get and they saw I was a certified teacher. I had the idea for my neighbor and visiting teaching charge and I to split the job (she is a teacher too) and then I would only work part time and get to teach. It sounded like a great idea but I just felt uneasy about it. I wasn't sure if it was the thought of change and leaving my kids every day or if it really was not the right thing to do. I made my decision to take the job and then took it to the Lord. I wasn't sure what His answer to me was, so I just kept on taking the steps. I was getting excited for it yesterday and then today I woke up with a terrible feeling about it. I went in with my potential teaching partner for the interview. Since they called me I thought we pretty much had it in the bag and that was making me even more anxious, but I kept thinking it was just thinking about all the changes that would be necessary to accommodate my job. I came home from the interview feeling worse than ever. I knew I didn't want to do it but how did I tell Debbie (by neighbor) after dragging her into this? How can I turn down a chance to make some needed money to build a house next spring? I know now that my uneasy feeling was the answer to my many prayers but I was so afraid to act. Luckily, Heavenly Father loves me and He acted for me! We didn't get the job! I have never been so relieved to be turned down for a job in my life! We are still alternates if one of the other people they hired backs out but I am SO RELIEVED and THANKFUL!!

2 comments:

Todd and Amyjoy said...

Leslie,
Thanks for that. We are in the middle of some same prayerful pleadings as to what to do ourselves. So far no real decisions to decide on but time is ticking. I feel that things will work out, we're just not sure how.
Glad you have peace now.
Amyjoy

The Mahi Family said...

I so appreciate stories like these that remind us how present God is in each of our lives. Thanks for sharing!